My mother always criticized my weight and valued appearances more than people. So when I got engaged, I thought she’d finally celebrate and say she was proud of me. I was wrong.
My mom decided I wasn’t worth the wedding fund my late dad left behind, and gave it away to my supposed “pretty” cousin. I’m Casey. At 25, I work as a chef and dream of writing and directing films that’ll make people cry in the dark for all the right reasons.
But my story? It had me crying for all the wrong ones. I grew up in a house where we vacuumed even if the carpet was spotless, where smiles were worn like foundation, and where my mom, Janet, cared more about how things looked than how we actually felt.
It felt like living in a museum where I was the one exhibit that never quite fit. Everything had to look perfect from the outside — our lawn, holiday cards, and Sunday dinner conversations. But inside these walls, I learned early that appearances mattered more than feelings, and I was consistently falling short of my mom’s standards.
I’m the only child, which you’d think would make me precious cargo. No. It just meant all of Mom’s scrutiny had nowhere else to land.
When my dad, Billie, died during my junior year of high school, something shifted in her. The criticism that used to come in whispers got louder, sharper, and more frequent. “Do you really need more?” she’d snap while I reached for more food at dinner.
“You’re already bursting out of those jeans.”
Or my personal favorite, delivered during a crowded lunch at Romano’s Bistro last spring: “God, slow down. You graze your food like cattle. Could you chew any louder?
Everyone’s staring at us.”
The heat that rushed to my face that day could’ve cooked pasta. I wanted to disappear under the checkered tablecloth, but instead I just pushed my plate away and excused myself to the bathroom, where I cried ugly tears into scratchy paper towels. But here’s what kept me going: Dad’s voice that kept echoing in my memory from those summer evenings on our back porch.
He’d sip his lemon and honey tea and tell me about the wedding fund he’d set up, and how he couldn’t wait to walk me down the aisle someday. “I might cry like a baby,” he’d said, grinning. “But I’ll be the proudest father there.
Yes. The proudest!”
That account sat in Mom’s name for safekeeping, waiting for the day I’d need it. I used to picture the wedding it would pay for… nothing fancy, just people who actually loved me.
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